~Forgetting~

Finally on9,wanted to add in something else during yesterday night but due to time constraint..LOLs...Reali wants to thx another person & tat is Ginny^^
Although i kno tat time is the best solution but she unlocked some of the path in my heart....All i can say tat those frens of mine say tat u are evil are wrong coz u are reali good...
Although some part of yr story is tat trying to turn love into hate & forget,but i tried be4 & it doesnt works....
The 4 main reason for me to forget her soon are tat 1 gal,told me tat it is not worth waiting for her as she might hurt me & i started to heed her advice..how i wish i got to kno her earlier & she tell me tat earlier....I reali miss her now,as a fren,as she gone out of country le....Thx for yr advice^^
Another reason is coz of those words tat Ginny said yesterday..3rd reason is tat the letter tat i wrote include "tearing away if i doesnt stand a chance to be frens back" & she reali torn away & tats when i kno i should stop...Last reason is of course,my best frens tat stood wif me to overcome this prob & some others frens tat hear my story & cheer me up like Debbie,Tisya,Bernice & obviously Samuel Sim tat started advicing me since the start.hahas,i repeated tat again.LOLs.
Ok,done wif tat finally,now is the counting down of "O" level Mother Tongue,LOLS,1 more day...arghhhhh.......

Does Love always come wif looks?

Wow..This title is somehow the question too..ya,nearly all gals tat are chio goes for those guys tat are yandao..haiz...but some are different....To lots of ppl,different ppl have different taste,some might think tat this person is good looking but some might not....
Ok,to Tisya,maybe they juz think tat way,but i only kno tat my love for her is always true even if they think tat i am not shuai..
Basically,wanted to give up the last 1% but it is reali too hard coz when countering tat,i feel tat i gain more soon then letting it go...F it man....Ok,wadever,skip tat....
To Debbie,u are only the one tat kno the secret for now even Bo Jun doesnt kno it so keep quiet & i dun wan let so many ppl kno be4 i confirm it,but i do think tat i dun have to confirm le coz i will feel bad if i do wrong 1 step coz i reali still cant forget "her",so i am afraid the other party will get hurt too or wad.....Arghhhh....stress up wif all those things,hope it will be gone soon & back to my normal life...Ok,afterall i have to keep telling myself,"O" level Mother Tongue 1st....LOLx....
Deeply appreciate to those tat are standing beside me & cheering me up^^

~ Today ~

Wow,wake up early coz reali cant sleep..Sry Debbie,i said tat i was going to msg late at night but cant coz when i woke up is around 2am le & i very tired to move sia coz of tat so many basketball match^^ but is fun.hahas...Heard from my classmate,Clive,tat today ned go back sch..lols..i reali dunno sia n dunno reali ned a not..hahas...ya,basically wake up le feel tat "she bu de fang shou"...but i reali had to & it reali hard to overcome the last 1% coz its when i remember abt the good past & trying to dump it away_|_ All i kno is to try & try no matter wad for the sake of my frens especially Samuel Sim coz he had been encouraging me to give up since the start...Should reali heed his advice lor then wont have so much trouble or wad le..ok,change topic,errrrr.....ok nothing to say le.LOLS.juz looking forward to 16th June coz going have lots & fun & obviously tats when i reali kno whether i can forget her for the last 1%,but "O" level Mother Tongue are coming in 2 Days time..OMFG....hope to get B4 but muz study..ok post til here..BYE~

Mainly abt Today =)

Finally got to post again...Be4 tat show u all this pictures 1st,the sleepy Bo Jun & me & the acting cute & childish juniors.LOLs...OK,wanna say so much things lor...hahas,but i will cut it sort to prevent u all from being bored,so ya,here the stories come(zzzzzzz)
On Wednesday,my CCA,took some pictures of my junior.lols...btw i alr step down but i still go but now no longer le coz gonna study my "O" levels....& is so damn nervous lor coz 3 more days to my MOTHER TONGUE "O" LEVEL.....
Next,is today,kind of fun coz lots of things happen but i will summarise^^ Mdm Tay talk abt those Crime things & H1N1,wow,4 cases le,why cant it be after Holidays (Btw first thing is bored, 2nd thing might not be fun but a bit funny) She talked for so long then is like my right face is buring hot lor then i said to my fren tat later my right face darker than my left face sia.....after tat,when to help out,Arghhhh sry Ms Abidah coz i break her promise but they reali ned helps,sry..sry..sry......But i reali have fun lor coz i played the "Haru Haru" music then i sing wif my juniors until like siao^^hahahahahas.....(reali like acting lor coz she walk pass me too then i more emo then sing like crazy..LOLs) OK,after all this things,when to play basketball & oso VS the teacher lor but dun wan say le coz will feel a bit angry,coz of some1....
OK,now new topic,guys dun get bored 1st especially my best frens & especially Bo Jun,tat had been staying wif me when i fight this obstacles & it is now over i guess...Bo Jun,after the shower i taken juz now,i left 1% le^^
This is abt ya obviously my relationship again,guys,now i am reali letting it go for the sake tat i have to & coz i reali love her too much(ok,guys might be blur blur le) Arghhhhh,dunno how to say,ok,all i have to say is tat i putting down le coz of somethings & specially thanks to some1 & tat is TISYA...
I put down doesnt means tat i dun have any feeling anymore but it means tat i wont be so F up & wont be sad but juz letting it go is better & less hurts..Best Frens tat always cheer me up,THX A LOT^^ coz i finally realise the reason behind it le(REALI) & i kno i had been somehow being _ _ _ y _ _ (guys go guess it & it is wif past tense.LOLS) But frens & brothers,i will stay as strong no matter wad for i had to^^

When out wif 2 best brothers ever!!!!

Yesterday was such a shiok day lor,went out wif frens to Bugis & oso Suntec,but feeling tired coz the stupid escalator spoil then climb tat stupid stairs_|_ & oso get bully by them coz they keep on talking abt stead la & wad so ever then they nothing to talk,talk until my side...Fuck them man especially Hensely(muz put his name big big)....Here are the pictures we took....
Today,nothing much juz hate 2 things,1 is the Mother Tongue intensive,study from 8 to 3.35 all abt Mother Tongue,bored like siao lor but good for my upcoming "O" level Mother Tongue & tat is 1 wk from today...2nd thing i hate is erm....sry cant say..abt something & only some kno tat..so ya,posting til here.Bye~

The days are coming soon

Today,went to sch to study for my Chinese coz my Mother Tongue "O" level are coming reali reali soon juz a few more days.WTF!!!! Still so nervous,dunno wad then cure it lor.... I am looking forward to May 29 & 30 coz there is AV Camp,so fun coz gonna go East Coast Park for Amazing race^^ lucky i didnt play & juz a station master....hahas...Oso looking forward to after the 6 days of extended programme in June Holidays coz after tat gonna go have lots of fun be4 i reali change into my "O" level mode & back to a nerd-.- Time reali flies,soon will be leaving this sch & i will miss lots of u & especially some of it.....Now,i gonna take the Biggest regret wif me as this burden cant be put down.sob=(
Ok,wadever skip tat be4 i think of someone again(trying to put down & letting it go for 1 wk,but dunno will i fail?) Hey guys tat saw this new post,wanna ask u all whether u all wan go out on June 12 or 15 or 16 ma,to East Coast to ride bike^^ ?(if wan tag me & say...currently a few ppl are going)

Was about to post for the last few days but dun think there was a ned & juz abt i finally being wake up by a talk from my form teacher & others are juz my frens & I playing basketball,it was so fun lor & oso i suddenly recall those sad things(skip this topic & it will be better)... For today,the In-Place-Protection was so cool lor coz my frens & I built the stupid toilet & 2 guys when u & act Gay..laugh like siao~.~ After tat,Ms Abidah told us a Ghost story & it will be frightening if i reali encounter tat when i go for my NS.... Btw Aaron from Sec 1e2 told me tat 1 of the Haru Haru from my video bar is very funny & tat is the 3rd 1...After i watch a few mins,i laugh like siao even til now coz they are like idiots acting lor..Really funny..hahahahahahas.....Oh ya btw after my O levels,gonna do break dance wif my frens,looks cool & i am learning a bit now(Haru Haru music will be insert)... Hey btw this are the pictures tat i took in Control Room & oso other places wif frens.....

Hurts Hurts Hurts

Now i shall reveal some parts of my secrets..Had u guys ever cry coz of a gal?? Thats when i say yes.. Sometimes my heart reali hurts a lot until i suddenly found out tat wow,i drop a few tears..Now i reali think tat every part of wooing a gal ned technique le & obviously sincerity....Last time i was stupid lor coz never woo a gal & put in much effort be4...
Now all those things you had done lead me to a misunderstanding too & that is " y muz u slowly torture me this way be4 u hurts me terribly,why?" "Why cant u juz stab me & kill me straight away?"
Although u finally kno tat it hurts a lot to say Goodbye,but y are u doing tat to me too? It reali would hurt less if i would to be dead than being tortured..
I still remember the day when u told me tat " 1 advice,go find yrself a GF". After a few days i oso dunno y i fall in love wif u(Guys might think OMG!!!)...Should not heed yr advice so wont get so hurt now...Some of my frens said tat you are juz playing wif my feelings & might have something up to yr sleeve but i choose to trust u even til now but instead,u are trying to hurt me....You oso once told me tat " Ofc,we are still frens no matter wad la." But now it doesnt looks like this words exist..I trust every words u said but some of it,u fail to win my trust....
Although I kno I am wrong but y cant u giv me a chance to explain everything? Although I did said tat u live yr life,i live my life but i can say tat i reali cant forget u at all coz u will be in my heart forever..I am juz backing out & i think tat i should coz I am letting u go as i truely love u & dun wanna make u angry or wad le... I am juz afraid tat I might go back to u wifout knowing when i thought of those good memories so i wish to throw it away....
1 thing i reali admire from her character is tat she is reali strong..She oso did told me tat "we had to be strong",coz of the same family problems we had...From the position I am standing,I can see tat she is reali reali strong whereas I failed to be strong now..I once was very strong after she told me tat we had too but now it failed...Why it is juz 1st half of my Sec 4 life & alr screwed up so much things tat hurts me so much? And why when i am feeling the weakest,so much things hurts me? Sooner or later, after 1 last blow,I will definitely be down.....

Once again,back to my fuck up life....Any love experts can tell me how to forget the gal tat u love???(coz of some things,she hates me now)... I reali want to ask her a lot of things but i know i would juz get 3 words back for all question or even nothing at all... I wanna say tat " I was wrong,& it lead to misunderstanding,pls forgive me(although i kno she wont)...When i call u,u had no response & i cant even start up a conversation now..I thought i wont feel any hurts & forget u after a few days but i was very very wrong...i cant live wifout all of it.... I reali wonder had u forgotten me as a fren....but i do think tat the answer is yes u had coz til now,it still remain the same things tat u had done to me when u are angry...All i can say is,u live yr life,i live my life...I will try to be as happy as possible but I reali hope tat u r happier than me....coz i will get immune one day after all those hurts tat bleeds in my heart.Juz can say,take all memories wifout regret although i extremely regret but who can i blame? Only myself...Sob=( "
Dun wanna talk abt MYE le coz it sucks my whole life,but i juz can say tat no matter wad,i will defintely Buck up & chiong my studies le & not slacking tat fucking much....Wanna get good results for my prelim.....LOL,very nervous coz "O" level Mother Tongue is coming nearer & nearer le...

About today

Haiz....screwed up all those Exams.....Done quite badly but lots of it improve,erm,i mean all improve except for my stupid English...Arghhhh...sienz lor,ok wadever....
Life is soon back to normal like wad i use to be when i didnt love a gal at all but the day had not yet reali reach but it is on the stepping stone to success le...LOLs...Once again,reali hate to forget but i had to if not i can guarantee i will lost all brain cells.LMAO...already lose a lot to forget le.hahas..Ya,so post til here.bye~

Finally make up my mind le!!!! & abt today

Yeah!!! finally make up my mind le.....Now i make a deal tat if after June holiday,if we reaili cant be frens anymore,then i would juz say GoodBye to it & forget her...yes,forget her, althought it reali hurts a lot to lose things but i think she kno tat too so ya,it will be happier if i let it go....reali reali dun wish to let go but somethings if u regret it,it is no use le coz it wont come back to u le....Thx to my frens tat go out wif me today & i had this feeling of letting it go....this are the photos we took at the beach.hahas....Btw,there is 1 picture wanna put for some1 to see but it is no use now,so i juz put for u all to see ba...hahas..coz dun wan lose whatever i have now,muz treasure it...Sry if tat picture look sucks... Hey,oh ya,be4 tat,we went to MacDonald & guess wad,we waited for tat stupid Wei Lun & in the end we lie to him & tell him tat the fries are seaweed shaker de,actually we put cream powder,salt,sugar & even pepper but tat looks reali like lor & he even eat tat.OMFG.hahas....

Cool!!! Yesterday went out wif frens to repair at Queenstown after tat went to Bugis & lastly went to Tampines...LOL...had a lot of fun taking photos at Tampines but the sad thing was tat 2 frens went home le...ok,now show u all the pictures..

Btw guys,look at the video bar,its nice,click on them....but so sry,its abt love & yeah coz i had been hurt so deeply & listen to this songs for dunno hw many times le....

Life is boring wifout you but wad can i do? Nothing,precisely,coz letting u go is the best solution for now as to show u tat i truely love u & dun wanna make u angry again...For all i kno,when i am letting u go,all of a sudden,i thought of those days when i walk & talk to u...Although you are quiet when chatting & walking wif u,but i do enjoy every moment....Now whenever i think of it,i feel tat there are thousands of needles piercing thru my heart & it reali hurts....No matter wad happen again,i will stay even stronger & continue to be happy =)

Hey,yesterday i think some part of Singapore on fire coz at night i saw the fiery aura in the sky...will be posting the video tat i took shortly....Unfortunately,cant see the fire coz buildings blocking it.....

Hahas....Looking forward to going out wif frens during this 4 days break...but soon i will be extremely nervous ler.Hehe.(LOL,i still got the guts to go out & slack sia...wad a bad boy i am..Oops,not boy anymore^^ should be guy) Now to me,i am taking everything as natural as possible coz in chinese there is a sentence tat say "when a boat reach the dock,it will be straight"...LOL...so now i think tat fate is important & trust too,if there is little or even no trust at all,misunderstanding will start non-stop....Ok,wadever,posting til here for today..


(PLS DO NOT INTOXICATE ME WIF YR EXUBERANT VEBOSITY)

Yay!!!! Exams finally over but fuck,my O level Mother Tongue coming le...so nervous lor...Anyway, bored to death le,no choice either post on blog or go talk to frens in msn...sienz..juz enter her blog & found out tat WTF,her blog tio spam by some unknown suckers...Wish to help her but quite " mao dun" coz afraid tat got misunderstanding again or even "fan"....but after some thinking,i think i should help her lor.....Would not afraid to help her coz afterall she is still the one tat i truely love,even she doesnt love me(LOL,kind of stupid but i am not=P ).....So ya,looks like blog can reali lead to fighting or even gang fight juz coz of some annonymus tags...Ok,enough of tat,post abt yesterday ba,after exam,called Ginny to go play basketball then WTH,she dun wan or wad,ok,wadever,then went to play basketball wif my pri sch frens & some a lot of those pai kia.hahas...kno lots & lots of them de lor coz of some reasons but i am not one now=)..oh ya,be4 tat,i was having a nice chat wif one of the 1E2 boys,Aaron(dun reali kno how to spell his name),hahas....So,tats how i celebrate my days after exams,but for after O level,gonna celebrate like crazy person le.....hehe..post til here.bye~

(Hey,oh ya,i juz found out tat now i a bit "zi lian" lor...hahas..actually is too bored le so juz take pic & put on blog)

After a bit of thinking & talking to my fren,Jia Jin, in msn, i now truely kno tat he is in the same situation as me...LOL...he is rather hurts too...but after those conversation...both of us think the same...Both of us do quite a lot to the gal tat truely love & never regret thou...& his PM in msn were reali cool lor..it says" ying wei ai ni cai ran ni zou"... I strongly agree wif this words & now i am letting it go for the sake tat i truely love her & dun wanna make her angry...too much misunderstanding had occur le until it cant be solve.sob=(.... & we oso think tat as long as she is reali happy,tats enuf le...no matter how hurt we are...(Hey,u all might think tat we are stupid,but we are not....coz we truely truely love them...)

Life is truely meaningless for me le....I am juz living for the sake of living....Screwed up wif everything now....wanna post abt yesterday things but i dun think i have to....juz to say tat i am standing at the kitchen window & looking out into the sky & then realise tat i had been standing there for 1hr...took a pic of my old primary sch in the dark gloomy sky..lol..Actually i was thinking of those words tat my Lenard Kor Kor had once ask me...all abt love again...but no point telling now coz juz talk to my fren,Ginny,& found out something...Now i truely kno tat every words we say is reali reali important...Juz wanna her be happy but in the end Care="fan" & even making her angry...My fren once told me tat y should i ruin my whole life juz coz of a gal & i told her tat "dunno,but juz never regret doing all those Good things for her..as for those tat i had done wrong,All i truely kno tat i am reali reali sry & i will try again & again until the day i reali forget her coz i kno tat it cant be turn back when i reali done so much wrong things & oso continue living as wad i had say" live for the sake of living"...
(Thx Bo jun for telling me abt the life & remind of the words tat a fren once told me abt)
Cant post much today coz reali reali feeling down le....I reali wish tat i could turn back time but it cant...

Sry...the part when i msg DEBBIE was on 5th May...i was so damn blur yesterday & oso type wrongly for lots of things....Looks like exam not only kill but oso make ppl blur coz some of my frens oso blur blur de...Sienz...posting abt today ba...rather angry wif my Mom & quarrelled wif her due to 1 handphone...wanna say sry but she make me even piss off when she told me other things abt HP again... Now i truely kno tat no one can answer the question u had ask.Only u yrself can solve & answer it... & now i truely kno tat y i cant forget her le & i reali regret doing all those wrong things...should treasure it even more...The reason for I reali cant forget her was tat i still miss those days & those memories were screwed tidely into my brain & heart le....Arghhh......

(For all i kno,i am no longer the innocent guy tat i use to be as it had be hurt to death by those relationship prob & now typing this things de is totally a new person tat is even more EVIL....but 1 thing tat never change is tat i am still devoted to tat gal-.- Although EVIL,i will harm those tat are my frens...coz i only attack those tat are going against me like an enemy...(but not my mom la even i angry wif her.LOL)

Hahahahas.Pictures again...This are the pic tat i took wif my "Brothers"..the guy in the middle,name Wei Tat, had juz join our 'Brothers' de gang.LOL.......gonna torture him & teach him all those bad things.muhahahaha. EVIL.
LOL.juz kidding=)....no joke no fun-.-

Arghhhh......Its sucks....Too many unhappy & unusual things happen le...cant take any blow le....why?why does it happen???? Heard from best fren tat those things is i created coz i didnt avoid it in the 1st place....especially Love & other problems....Haiz...Nvm,juz w8 lor coz reali dunno wad steps i should take le & i only kno my O level is chasing me le....so ya study 1st..hahas...& i reali wanna thx to some1 & tat is DEBBIE...coz on 5th May(Edited),in the morning,it was raining & i msg her & told her to send "her"(dun wan say out name if not some ppl might get angry) to sch if not she will be drenched & might catch a cold again(to easily to catch a cold i think)...& DEBBIE reali agree to send her and she told me tat she is alr going to send her....hahas.....So ya,once again thx to DEBBIE..& she is reali kind of great coz she cheer me up when i am feeling down & oso both of us oso try to joke around..LOLs.....As for the Lit paper,i reali flung the whole unseen poem lor although i kno how to tackle it using paraphrase but still cant think out of the box lor....so damn diffcult,all abt the stupid 7 sorrows & no link at all.... And for today,all i can say,POA suxs....the paper 2 is so fucking irritating & i nearly went to slp....Ok,post until here & continue next time....Hope to meet up wif frens again this coming Sunday...Exams reali kill us all

Hehe=) this are the photos we took last wk at Tampines^^ Haiz...today is kind of bored.when to Bo jun house to do maths....Next wk will be like siao le coz so many exams throwing at me=(

After exam going out wif more frens again^^ but soon my O level mother tongue coming le...so nervous lor.....Gonna miss my frens for now but soon meet up.ya....afterall i miss some1.... and she might be still angry wif me=( SOB ...ok,THE END...posting next wk^^

Labour Day were so fun....I went out wif Bo Jun and another yandao guy,Kee Meng.Went to watch movie at Plaza Singapura...wanted to take picture but they dun wan..sob..so in the end only take some pic at the same place...oh ya,be4 we watch movie,we went to Orchard Road then walk to Plaza Singapura...after watching we walk to Bugis then i became emo...wanna listen to music then so fuck up lor__ tat stupid Ah meng(tats wad i use to call kee meng) keep on irritate me then cant emo...btw sry for emoing when i so long then can meet up wif u....next time wont le..will be throwing all those unhappy things away..hahas....Oh ya,guys tat not yet watch x men should go coz its so nice lor..some parts are funny...especially when x men run down the hill naked...hahas...but censored la...Dun get horny=) After we reach Bugis then walk around like crazy ppl then finally go home...its fun than staying at home & study for so long^^ Hope to meet up soon...i think after our MYE...